As I sit and reflect over the events the past few days, I am challenging myself to let go of the hurt associated with Muse’s actions towards me and my subsequent actions towards him.
Yes, part of that anger/hurt stems from still wanting his approval. To be seen as worthy in his eyes. Defending myself.
I asked her why he is still angry with me. She replied, because he still cares. To me that indicates nothing different from where I sit….
Wow. Fucked up, huh? Why the hell does it matter to either of us? The heart does not easily succumb to cold, dumb and numb. You can’t turn off Love or Caring with the flip of a switch.
So today I will let the 2nd of The 4 Agreements settle in my soul. And look at where I don’t own others behaviors. Like it or not….
Don’t Take Anything Personally
Nothing others do is because of you. What others say and do is a projection of their own dream. When you are immune to the opinions and actions of others, you won’t be the victim of needless suffering.
We take things personally when we agree with what others have said. If we didn’t agree, the things that others say would not affect us emotionally. If we did not care about what others think about us, their words or behavior could not affect us.
Even if someone yells at you, gossips about you, harms you or yours, it still is not about you! Their actions and words are based on what they believe in their personal dream.
Our personal “Book of Law” and belief system makes us feel safe. When people have beliefs that are different from our own, we get scared, defend ourselves, and impose our point of view on others. If someone gets angry with us it is because our belief system is challenging their belief system and they get scared. They need to defend their point of view. Why become angry, create conflict, and expend energy arguing when you are aware of this?